I have felt a bit worn and weary lately. Sometimes the emotional toll of sharing people’s joys and sorrows gets a bit heavy, because sorrow seems so much more prevalent than joy. I know all the correct theological arguments about how joy is not dependant on our “happenings” but I still fall victim sometimes to the “blues.” But even when feeling “down in the dumps” I know that God knows just how and when to refresh me. He is the source of my joy, so naturally I turn to Him. And even if we don’t turn our eyes to Him, He still has compassion on His children that are staring dumbfounded at the chaos around them.
Last evening God refreshed me in a huge way. One of the boys in our church came and found me after services. That isn’t all that unusual for this young man, his brother, and sister, because they usually show me affection and respect. As a matter of fact, all three of the siblings came by and spoke to me at separate times, but it was the youngest one who came last as a special blessing from God.
Noah came right up at my greeting even though several adults were standing talking with me. I stopped and asked him about his day and we talked a few short minutes. Then he said, “We’re (his family) leaving next year.” My wife and I responded simultaneously, “We know and we don’t want you to go.”
Then Noah said one of the nicest things that has ever been said to me, “I don’t want to go either, because you are the best pastor I’ve ever had.” This was said with no guile or agenda as he came to hug me. It melted my heart!
As I thought about his comment later, I knew it was not true. I am not the best pastor. I can be difficult and even distant at times. But because this little boy thought that I was the best, it really made me want to be the best pastor ever.
So I said, “God, You sent Noah to tell me that and for You, him, and all the other children (and adults) I want to be the best. When I am tired, give me strength. When I am distracted, help me focus. When I am aggravated, help me be calm. When I don’t care, help me care deeply. God, help me be the man you want me to be.”